Today makes a year and 12 days that I officially said “Yes” to The Lord’s tugging at my heartstring. Let me tell you, He tugged rreeaallllll hard. The year before the “yes”, ensued terrible anxiety and heart palpitations. Heart ache too great that any one should bear and loss of connections that I held very dear. Oh yea… I’m also a retired poet. So most of my lines might actually have a rhythm or rhyme to them. It’s how I relate. I also digress …. a lot. But I usually come back to my point fairly quickly.
A lot of what happened before my “Yes” was simply God trying to get my attention. I had put so many things and people before and on top of Him that He almost became a non existent, distant memory. But The Lord always prevails.
Throughout this past year though, I’m glad for the way He has drawn me closer to Him. Have I continued to lose/give up friends? Sure! Have I continued to break barriers that distracted and kept me from Him?! By His help and Grace, absolutely! But still, the sadness of broken friendships, loved ones now (seemingly) gone, still lingers. I should point out though, that though God takes away, or removes things or people from your life, He ALWAYS replaces what was “lost” or taken, with replacements worth greater than human expectation or value.
- True understanding of Him,
- A greater sense of awareness of His nearness to you & Personal Love for you.
- Not to mention an around the clock, day or night, second by second, best friend that is ALWAYS THERE.
- A Counselor, Miracle worker and Way maker during difficult or hard to bear situations that no one else seems to understand.
- A Father/Mother figure to the orphaned,
- Lover to the lonely and,
- A teacher and guide to the lost.
ONLY GOD can be all these things all the time, EVERY time you need Him.
This walk with Christ is not meant to be easy, nor is it meant to be suffered through. It is meant to be ENDURED.
“Again I saw that under the sun the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, nor bread to the wise, nor riches to the intelligent, nor favor to those with knowledge, but time and chance happen to them all” – Ecclesiastes 9 v 11
The creator of Aesop’s Fables uses this verse to coin the phrase…
“The race is not given to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, but to the one who can endure“
To Endure is to be refined. To be stripped down to the bare essentials (original design) and made stronger while simultaneously being weakened due to current circumstances. This weakening adds to the strength developed. Counting the cost of the current situation as futile in comparison to the overall prize of that which is held out to and for us at the end.
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you encounter trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.…Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him” – James 1 v 2-3 and 12
These few verses sum up what the last 2-3 years have been like. With most of the happenings going on with me not having a clue of God’s greater plan. But I can’t say that I regret those years or the lessons gleaned from them. I also can’t honestly say that I would willingly relive them. I will say that I am terribly thankful to God for the way He has and continues test and perfect my Faith in Him, while bolstering my belief in His Will and His Word. All the while magnifying His Glory and blindsiding me with His Wonder and Grace to increase my Awareness of WHO He IS.
The Creator of ALL.
The Lover of my soul,
The Ultimate Provider in my life,
The Forgiver of my every sins (every second of every day),
My Grace Giver and Passionate Protector,
My Abba Father, My God, My Yahweh.
My Jesus & Saviour.
And I, am His Ada.
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