Coming to God

I sat up as The Lord began speaking to me. He commands my attention with yet just a whisper and a firm peacefulness that the world can never hope to give.

“Speak with confidence, as you know I will Hear you and I will Answer you. You are my Favoured Child. Once you come to Me and align yourself with My Will, there is nothing I won’t Do for you. So Come.” – Abba

As Abba had finished speaking to me,  He reminded me of a verse from Hebrews.

16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” – Hebrews 4 v 16 (ESV)

Let me point out, that while I have read The Book of Hebrews, I have the memory of a ladybug (I like ladybugs, they are entrancing).  So it stood out to me right away, the fact that the scripture,  after I went looking, used the same strong language in the form of the word “confidence”. Another translation uses the word “boldly”.

16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.” (KJV)

While still strong language, it doesn’t exactly convey the same meaning. One can be bold yet not confident in what they are doing or asking. Confidence by virtue of definition, begets Trust. Trust is developed over time, often through constant and reliable interaction whether in person or otherwise. A bond is formed. You KNOW you can Depend on the one whom you have placed your Trust in. The one whom you’ve developed Confidence in.

I have been seeking, believing, and praying, and waiting on God. What I realize now though is that i haven’t been Trusting. My confidence in Who He is has been waning. Simply because I’ve been so focused on the how’s and what’s and what if’s of what I’ve been asking Him to do. Never mind that God is the one that put the desire for these things in my spirit in the first place, and that He gave me the very words to pray. Even with all that, and being as aligned as a row of match sticks jammed in a tiny box,  I still had No CONFIDENCE!

How do I know God put these desires in my heart and spirit? Simple, they scare the crap out of me and they are things I never… ever dreamed of for myself nor even thought them to be remotely possible. So maybe I secretly don’t want them to happen and since God knows the hearts of men, He’s withholding until I’m fully aligned? The thing is though, God doesn’t have to work too hard once He’s gotten our attention. So if He’s already brought me over to His side and shown and revealed unsearchable things,  convinced me that He has a plan and a future for me and transformed and renewed my mind by making me into a new creation, I’m basically 80-95% aligned with His will by default. The other 3% is my submission and the remaining 2% that often goes un-calculated or forgotten, is our Confidence that God can actually DO this NEW thing that He has told us He wants to do AND has even already started doing! Half the time I miss the fact that He’s already started the new thing, until the new thing is just about in my face or it probably flew right over my head and I’m just chasing after it trying to catch up.

This walk with God requires us to walk WITH Him. So He will take measures to keep us in stride with Him. This is where boosting confidence comes in. I had been really waning on this point. You Pray, Believe, Hope, Wait, Pray some more, Doubt because nothing seems to be happening, and then confidence slips away. Well meaning family members start to question your judgement and confidence slips a little further down the lane. Rejection letters start coming in or no correspondence at all, which, to the world is also a rejection by default and confidence is now at an all time low, cant get any lower right? Then you start worrying, savings is now depleted, family is definitely looking at you sideways now and therefore “encouraging” you to consider other options. Whether these persons are also on this Faith Walk with Christ or not is another matter entirely and you’re purely just trying to stay afloat and not drown.

Then, in between your inward and silent sobbing, a still small whisper reminds you,

1 The Lord who created you says,
“Do not be afraid—I will save you.
I have called you by name—you are mine.
When you pass through deep waters, I will be with you;
your troubles will not overwhelm you.
When you pass through fire, you will not be burned;
the hard trials that come will not hurt you.
For I am the Lord your God,
the Holy God of Israel, who saves you.”             Isaiah 43 (GNT)
The Lord reminds you, that you have been specifically Graced for your particular journey and that He is Always With you. The peace that surpasses all understanding returns and you remember to smile.  God’s Got You.
This is Trust. This is reliability. This is Confidence budding in all its nodular glory. Because it has to start from somewhere. It has to grow from somewhere. It has to be rooted in the one thing, the one person that will never fail. GOD.
During and after each trying situation, He maintains His presence with us whether we feel Him near or not. He never leaves us. That dependable knowledge that God IS going to show up and help us through, builds confidence.
However when we get so enthralled with what we see or don’t see, what we hear from others and what we think things should look like by now, we forget that God is still the God of Excellence and Right Timing. (Isaiah 60 v 22)
He takes precision and care to ensure that EVERYTHING works together for the good of not just ourselves, or our personal situation but for ALL that Love Him. (Romans 8 v 28) Our situations affect those of others, just as much as theirs affects ours. And if things haven’t changed yet, that means God is STILL perfecting. He doesn’t do things half way and He is not partial to one of His children over the other. He is the epitome of Neutral. Waiting and testing the heart of all that they may yet turn and come to Him. (Jeremiah 17 v 10)
Soooo, if things haven’t changed yet, re-boost your confidence. Remind yourself, not just who or whose you are, but remind yourself of Who God IS.
He is…
.Just
.Patient
.Kind
.Loving
.Omnipotent, Omniscient and Omnipresent.
He is our Counselor and our Comforter. And He will always hold our hand, every step of the way on this journey of walking in our Calling.
Be Blessed. Hang in there. Breakthrough is coming.
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Waiting on God?

Expect Your Miracle By The Clark Sisters

This morning I woke with many songs on my mind. I find that when ever Abba is trying to get me to a certain point of view He will use any way shape or form to do so. He is lovingly relentless when it comes to His children, communing with them and them relating to Him.

So I woke with the above song. I hadn’t heard this song in so long. Yet, He reminded me of a time when I heard it all the while and believed it to my core and my spirit that I would use it to minister to myself. He then also reminded me of a time when after such ministering, He came through. He is trying to tell me something, and I’m stubborn enough to miss it if I’m not careful.

The lyrics are as follows,

I’m looking for a miracle
I expect the impossible
I feel the intangible
I see the invisible
*
The sky is the limit
To what I can have
*
Just believe and receive it
God will perform it
Will perform it today
*
I expect a miracle every day
God will make a way out of no way.

That’s the whole song. As simple as this song is and seems, is as powerful it is as well. When you have The Truth of God which is The Word of God, coupled with such a song as this, amazing things can happen. Breakthroughs you’ve been waiting on, impossible situations turned around, unimaginable manifestations of God’s goodness suddenly come into being.  God knew what He was doing when He inspired the writer and singers of this song. God is ALWAYS intentional. One just has to pay attention and be willing to see His intentionality in their lives.

So I’m waiting on God for some really big things…. really big. People of the world would say “foolish” or even “impossible” things. Thankfully I’ve long seen and accepted that I am not of this world. I’m merely a yielded vessel of The Lord. Willing to be used for His Glory, passing on through, until His coming.

During my morning reading and meditation The Lord lead me to Exodus 14 and revealed a crucial piece to the Puzzle that is the great I AM.

Then the Lord said to Moses, “Tell the Israelites to turn back and encamp near Pi Hahiroth, between Migdol and the sea. They are to encamp by the sea, directly opposite Baal Zephon. Pharaoh will think, ‘The Israelites are wandering around the land in confusion, hemmed in by the desert.’ And I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, and he will pursue them. But I will gain glory for myself through Pharaoh and ALL his army, and the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord.” So the Israelites did this.” – Exodus 14 v 1-4, NIV

I’ve highlighted the bits that are the main focus. This is an idea of how I interpret what I’m reading. I dissect and sort through extraneous detail to find and draw out the main points. This is How God made me. Through this fashion He pointed out one blaring fact. HIS GLORY and His alone, is to be seen. His Name, when on the line, His reputation as THE GOD of ALL and His glory must always take precedence. Our job is to Trust Him. No matter what, despite how things seem or look to those around us. We are to TRUST.

Trust
… His Love for us
… His Position as GOD and Lord of ALL
… His Word to us
… His Commitment to upholding His reputation.

We WILL fail God. That is a given, and an inevitable expectation. ( Let’s be honest with ourselves now. )

But God will NEVER fail us. It’s not in His nature.

So take heart.

His answer(s) will more than likely come in ways we don’t expect and so we think He has forsaken or worse, forgotten His word to us. But He hasn’t. He is simply being an unfathomable awe-inspiring wonderful God.

We just has to pay attention to catch it.

So I encourage you to wait well with me.  ( I know! it feels like you’ve been waiting forever! ) Just hold on tight to GOD.
He’s not done yet.

 

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This New Life of Mine

Today makes a year and 12 days that I officially said “Yes” to The Lord’s tugging at my heartstring. Let me tell you, He tugged rreeaallllll hard. The year before the “yes”, ensued terrible anxiety and heart palpitations. Heart ache too great that any one should bear and loss of connections that I held very dear. Oh yea… I’m also a retired poet. So most of my lines might actually have a rhythm or rhyme to them. It’s how I relate. I also digress …. a lot. But I usually come back to my point fairly quickly.

A lot of what happened before my “Yes” was simply God trying to get my attention. I had put so many things and people before and on top of Him that He almost became a non existent, distant memory. But The Lord always prevails.

Throughout this past year though, I’m glad for the way He has drawn me closer to Him. Have I continued to lose/give up friends? Sure! Have I continued to break barriers that distracted and kept me from Him?! By His help and Grace, absolutely! But still, the sadness of broken friendships, loved ones now (seemingly) gone, still lingers. I should point out though, that though God takes away, or removes things or people from your life, He ALWAYS replaces what was “lost” or taken, with replacements worth greater than human expectation or value.

  1. True understanding of Him,
  2. A greater sense of awareness of His nearness to you & Personal Love for you.
  3. Not to mention an around the clock, day or night, second by second, best friend that is ALWAYS THERE.
  4. A Counselor, Miracle worker and Way maker during difficult or hard to bear situations that no one else seems to understand.
  5. A Father/Mother figure to the orphaned,
  6. Lover to the lonely and,
  7. A teacher and guide to the lost.

 

ONLY GOD can be all these things all the time, EVERY time you need Him.

This walk with Christ is not meant to be easy, nor is it meant to be suffered through. It is meant to be ENDURED.

“Again I saw that under the sun the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, nor bread to the wise, nor riches to the intelligent, nor favor to those with knowledge, but time and chance happen to them all” – Ecclesiastes 9 v 11

The creator of Aesop’s Fables uses this verse to coin the phrase…

“The race is not given to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, but to the one who can endure

To Endure is to be refined. To be stripped down to the bare essentials (original design) and made stronger while simultaneously being weakened due to current circumstances. This weakening adds to the strength developed. Counting the cost of the current situation as futile in comparison to the overall prize of that which is held out to and for us at the end.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you encounter trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.…Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him” –     James 1 v 2-3 and 12

These few verses sum up what the last 2-3 years have been like. With most of the happenings going on with me not having a clue of God’s greater plan. But I can’t say that I regret those years or the lessons gleaned from them. I also can’t honestly say that I would willingly relive them. I will say that I am terribly thankful to God for the way He has and continues test and perfect my Faith in Him, while bolstering my belief in His Will and His Word. All the while magnifying His Glory and blindsiding me with His Wonder and Grace to increase my Awareness of WHO He IS.

The Creator of ALL.
The Lover of my soul,
The Ultimate Provider in my life,
The Forgiver of my every sins (every second of every day),
My Grace Giver and Passionate Protector,
My Abba Father, My God, My Yahweh.
My Jesus & Saviour.

And I, am His Ada.

 

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